CUTTING TIES WITH CONVENIENCE
[Originally written: November 28th, 2013]
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Harbin, Stree Market |
They say that old habits die hard. However,
what they fail to mention is that new habits form quickly. Circumstance
is what makes us form habits. No longer can I soak in the comfort of my
old habits and routine, because my environment doesn’t allow it. The
barriers of travel prevent me from waking up to eat my preferred
breakfast of tea and toast (I have searched every square mile for a
toaster) and relax on the sofa watching BBC News. Instead, I wake to
plug in my water-heater as I prepare my instant-porridge and banana, now
ripe from yesterdays market purchase. Before, I would return home and
hope there is a good selection of TV programs on that evening. Now I
return and hope my electricity isn’t cut-off, or my internet connection
is still available. After living with high-speed fiber optic, the
constant lack of online availability is a bigger challenge than one had
expected.
It is difficult to hold onto our habits when
we are constantly prevented from keeping them. Home comforts and
familiar routine for me are not an option. Now I return to my bed-sit
and spend my evenings making lesson plans, reading books or writing; the
days of sitting down with a bacon-sandwich to watch the latest updates
on Netflix are over. However, the challenge of losing convenience and
the safety of normality goes beyond a good internet connection. Just
stepping outside ones front door, a wave of abnormality, strangeness and
a constant assault to the senses makes you crave the mundane. Nothing
can prepare the uninitiated for the riot of noise, car horns and vendors
that stain the streets of China. At times, one can feel suffocated by
the chaotic lifestyle that runs through its veins. I often feel that
everything, be it buying milk or doing laundry, is much more difficult
now. However, I follow that thought with the suggestion that everything
was perhaps too easy before. Everything was convenient; which is,
after-all, what prompts one to travel in the first place.
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Harbin, China, 2013 |
They say the grass is greener on the
other-side; yet what they don’t tell you, is that it takes a lot of rain
to make that grass that bit greener. China is literally Yin and Yang.
There is a lot of positive attributes to this exciting world. Nothing is
ever the way it should be, and battle to make it that way is often in
vain. But when the internet won’t connect, or the electricity cuts off
half-way through cooking your seventeenth Noodle Stir-Fry in as many
days, the grass is simply being watered by the rain. And the next day,
or even the next week, the grass really is greener.
It really is an emotional battle to cut ties
with the convenience of home. I cannot make China into the country that I
want it to be, and quite rightly, I never expected or wanted to. Yin
and Yang is the Chinese concept that contrary forces are interdependent
of each other. In simple terms, you cannot experience good, without
experiencing bad, or you would have no concept of the good in the first
place – thus good and bad are interdependent.
The more time I spend in China, the more is
revealed. I have slowly become accustomed to the exciting thrill of
China (Yang) and the undeniable but forgivable disappointments (Yin). As
I say goodbye to the convenience of old, I realize that perhaps I can
not only survive in China, but thrive… even without an internet
connection.